I dimly sleep-watch the news CNN is a worldwide leader minutes become hours night become eye-blinking this dream states a dull hurt repressed even in memory a fire that scorched a burn underneath this layer of numb unfeeling skin I ripped it hello, my body inflamed your body our bodies from the unfeeling to the (un)feeling I apologize for your burn our burn have you seen this my the ability to breathe?
We lay unwilling wanting unwilling you unwilling me but willing too easily willing for so long months years running lines in palms underneath eyes lines creasing in bedsheets distraction willing attraction willing dull dull desensitize underneath forced nonchalant exterior dull ignored second degree burns -
As I dimly allow my mind to wander from this chilled sleepless night, (God, is it morning already? - I suppose, the sun is up), I understand how we weren't careful with each other. I'm so sorry for always being careless, too selfish to have ever felt with you fully.
Dude. I'm finally mourning you. Long time coming, you got me? And I'm usually too late, no need for the sym(pity).
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