Integrity. They talk about integrity in the community, but how is it being practiced? What is integrity if one of the rules in the Game of Intimacy is "Do What You Want" - what if there isn't enough communication? What if no one is taking accountability? If doing what you want involves hurting another individual, the sub-rule to that has to be a commitment to holding a container for that hurt, or must we be one-upping each other round after round of increasing vulnerability and left-hook pain?
This is how I feel about the promiscuity in this community. Enough is not being said, and it does not feel safe. I may be projecting because I am dating within the community. But I am trying to be as honest and open about my relationships as much as I can. And still - I don't feel safe. I don't feel like sharing partners within the community is safe. I project my shame on that, and the disrespect that I have for others is actually a disrespect for myself. I imagine the perfect unity of our Utopian Family is constant communication, openness, growing to be closer, not having open-ended hurt that splits people into chasms, cliques - and the practice of this Game of Intimacy without accountability is incredibly Unreal.
If we are to play this game, we need to play it at full-speed. Half-assing just isn't enough.
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