movies and hymns

im around and i miss you and will fill your tank with gas and buy you things.

- Cory

retracing your body retraces memories maybe traumas reenact muscle spasms worsen in age a reaction to being unfeeling a large percentage of my life you called it suppression oh my God I dreamt about you last night you're always affecting me in my dreams as if you don't do that enough in my waking hours my mom and I were traveling on an open road with myself at age 9 and myself at age 5 who didn't know she was repeatedly molested and we were lead into this indoor road system like a flea market and we created edible statues and watched films swimming in the deepest recesses of my cerebrum and I miraculously found every single material object I have lost including the ring that I lost in the Pacific Ocean age 7 when Mom told me not to wear it to jump in the water but I believe and I guess already I believed at age 7 that my material possessions know its master and are magnetic to my body and geographic location so says the nice camera that is now lost to auto thieves but a woman owning a tent decided that we were stealing her paper so you showed up and we raced around the block with my age 9 self to prove that we live the fullest in our bodies you fell in a deep affection with my age 9 self so I took the lead and left you in the dust when you ran up to me breathing deeply we were in love with our selves and with each other in the purest way and we felt our bodies from our hair follicles to our sinuses and inspired I told you

I am the West

and you said

I am the Midwest

and we stood there smiling and smiling and summer came and we stood together like statues

When I woke up, ice rolled off my back to the towel beside my bed, and the ache of feeling caused me to tremble like our little bonsai trees. Your dream self afflicted my real self. I sat up, and said aloud, "But truly I am the East Orient and you are the ice deserts of Siberia."