Potential

My full potential.

What can this possibly mean?

I can explore the universe of my fantasies, the caverns of my heart.

Perhaps that's what I've always relied on:
a more, fuller Me that lives in my head.
Someone I've always wanted to live up,
and quite honestly,
I'm ashamed when I move further.

Actually,
that's not true.

I surprise myself sometimes.

I'm not always on the path of moving closer or further away from my fantasy self.

Sometimes,
I delineate from that path altogether.

And,
unexpectedly,
I enjoy that part of myself,
perhaps the closer to myself - the truer fuller me.

Who is to say that Fantasy Me
can even be achieved?

Or rather -
do I even really want fantasy me to manifest?

This isn't a Hollywood film.