Rock Against a Hard Me

as I was dancing last night
there was a way
in which a man held me
really close
like he wanted to dance
WITH me
match me
or find a place
of togetherness with me

that I
wasn't able
to be with

I kept wrenching out
of his rhythm
and he couldn't keep up
with the spontaneity of mine

because I wanted to feel the music
but I also wanted him There

so that when I really felt
and danced in a way
that I can let go
I could know that he was there
to push up against
to witness me

and Jesus

I think that's what I've been wanting

to have someone distant enough

close enough

to witness me

and hold me

while giving me space

so that when I reach out
in my growth
expression
loving
I know he'll be there.